some resolutions

i think too often i have decided to live life the way I WANT to

the way i am influenced by the world to think that i want

to live for the moment, for personal gratification.

but i've been thinking about some things lately

and here's what i've concluded.

i will love god and people. his creation.

i will live like there is no tomorrow

(and it dawned on me that its quite appropriate seeing how unpredictable life is nowadays)

and not like a hedonistic sort of living with no regrets

but one with an eternal perspective.

to live choosing each choice because it matters to god.

and i've thought of a few things i wanna do before i die

- to have made a difference

- to see the aurora borealis

- and the green flash at hawaii

i'll work on this list! (=

EDITED, 30th dec!

vegans.

i saw this on my friend's msn nick:

"i am vegetarian not because i love animals. i am vegetarian because i hate plants"

that's quite brilliant! haha.

my thoughts tonight.

i believe.

the greatest thing that can happen in one's lifetime, is

spending one's life with someone.

the commitment to work things out

regardless how bad the situation gets

no matter what life throws at them.

that, will be the greatest thing.

aside from my daddy god of course.

and all that said. I'M REALLY STRESSED ABOUT THE THEATRE STUDIES THEORY PAPER TOMORROW!!!

life sucks. deal with it.

its always been like that. i've been on my own. what makes it any different? nothing.

all i ask is for someone amongst the people i know to meet me halfway. is that so difficult? i can't be the one keeping friendships or relationships going. its just got to work both ways.

you'll come

i have decided

i have resolved

to wait upon you lord

my rock and redeemer

shield and reward

i'll wait upon you lord

as surely as the sun will rise

you'll come to us

certain as the dawn appears

you'll come

let your glory fall

as you respond to us

spirit rain

flood into our thirsty hearts again

you'll come

you'll come

we are not shaken

we are not moved

we wait upon you lord

mighty deliverer

triumph and truth

we wait upon you lord

as surely as the sun will rise

you'll come to us

certain are your word endures

you'll come

let your glory fall

as you respond to us

spirit rain

flood into our thirsty hearts again

you'll come

you'll come

chains be broken

lives be healed

eyes be opened

christ is revealed.

-Hillsong Music Australia, This is Our God (2008)

today.

awesome, got to go to sentosa and just relax.

amazing, cause the clouds only got dark after i left sentosa. thanks god.

stressed, thinking of the amount i need to study, and the little time i have to do it.

confounded, don't understand the feminist theatre reading, don't even know if i should major in ts now.

upset, cause it struck me how much i do not want to be a part of this world. this superficial, overly glamourous and artificial society.

but guess what? its only gonna get worse.

a good day. until...

i was really pleased with today. was being the operative word.

my group mates had found a store to rent them our practical exam's costumes by the time i got there. they look awesome and i'm really happy cause it will definitely help them get into character a lot easier.

after getting the required stuff i went back to harbourfront, and went shopping. got two t-shirts and some (haha) underwear. and a long overdue haircut!!

and alicia helped me collect my south asia mid term paper (thanks alicia) and she stunned me when she told me i got 80+ plus. that made my evening.

and then i had this sorta heated "discussion" with someone. and it freaking ruined everything. nice.