insufficient time!

and so again its been a few blog-less days.

i have just moved into prince george's park residences today!

it hasn't exactly sunk in that i have moved out

i am living on my own now.

its really nice and quiet now, i have my own space!

i should be mugging for the ge1101 paper on friday. but im not.

people with huge egos annoy me. especially if they talk a lot.

if you know me well enough you should know who i'm talking about.

need to buy og identities tomorrow.

have lessons in the morning

dance pract after

get to chill for a while i reckon before buying og identities

have dance pract on wednesday

and either going for sec sch chalet or hanging in sch for day zero of o week

thursday o week starts

then friday i have my exam! stress!

busy as a bee...

its been a few days since the last blog entry i realised. but i've been so busy!!!

i was asked to be an ogl for o week by michelle. i'm really flattered she thought i was up to it. yanwei pointed out its strange she didn't put john in charge of me though. its the other way around! john's one of my councillors! i don't know leh... its stressful! he was after all the house ic for arts camp... it also means stress cause i have an exam smack in the center of o-week and i'm also dancing for rag. thank god applie's fine with me taking a smaller role...

that aside we made our og shirt today... really fun! so exciting! can't wait for it to be ready! whee. looking forward to o-week too! go absolut!!

i haven't spoken to jareth in a few days, wonder how he's doing. i find myself at a point in life where i'm beginning to treasure friendships more... i think at some point in life i decided to close up and not allow anyone in. but i thank god for bringing people into my life, and these are the people i don't want to let fade out... nuha, ben lee, marcus, jareth, alpheus people like joanne, pOk, sabrina. and sarah from church. i'm still learning this whole thing about letting people into your life. but i pray to god he'd help me with it and not let me fail...

its one a.m. now and i gotta go to bed. seems like so much to blog and reflect about yet so little time...

200708 carved deep into memory.

shroom has regrets...

a lot of stuff has been happening and needs to be done!

i just got home from pa camp

a few people from my og are beginning to get on my nerves. a lot.

i need to decide whether i'm going for rag dance or o week. i can only go for one. will blog more about it another time about the different pros and cons. sigh.

got to know quite a few people from pa camp. which is good. wish that did not make the above decision more difficult.

need to meet nuha for lunch.

need to finish the two human geog assignments and one phys geog assignment.

am glad to be getting to know jareth.

need to choose the songs for this weekend.

need to sign up for the cpf education scheme.

MY MAC MSN IS CRANKY!!!

okay i'm really really annoyed.

my mac:msn decided to go cranky on me! especially when that certain someone came online and said ONE LINE to me, and i couldnt reply! i restarted msn only to find out that that person's not online anymore!

wokay. i had a pretty happening day!!!

i woke up, lazed around for an hour or so and then got ready and went out to meet marcus, haven't seen him since secondary school man! he's looking good, haha lost weight and all! and then i went to do some shopping, and was almost late for church!

i sang offstage today at church cause they needed a tenor for harmonies... quite fun leh!

and then i had to rush to mona's house for her surprise birthday party! i got pretty frustrated trying to find the way. but it was worth it. nice catching up with all the council people. brought back so many memories. missed them these past two years.

shroom is reminiscing

a strange lack of energy

i feel bad. low. beaten. "seh". "nua". "emo". whatchumacallit.

maybe it was cause i felt i had to use a lot of energy 

to urge my OG on from one place to another?

like they dont really listen... i dunno. ignore me.

or maybe it was cause of a conversation

- or a lack of conversation - i had?

i don't want to feel like that.

i should go do quiet time. haven't done that in a while.

i know god's been nudging for me to talk to him.

that's what i should do. worship...

the shroom feels rather lonely.

yi chang huan xi yi chang kong

i had a long day. bit depressing too.

you'd think an entire day at home would be a good thing. would be restful. but not it isn't. we're having contractors over for renovations, and i must say there was this pretty hot guy doing the polishing of our tiles today. -hot- cause he practically only wore shorts while working the whole day. strange right.

so anyways aside from that. i had to do my geography assignments, one of which is thankfully 90% done. my goodness, editing the work of two other people kinda stinks. it was quite... painful. haha. well one person's at least. but i think it confirms that i'm a good refiner. like taking ideas and refining them to become a good final product. an executer as well.

i was initially quite happy cause some one picked me up today (not a right expression but you get the drift). but ben lee says he knows this person and well lets say he mentioned something that kinda brought me back down to earth. its a good thing really, i just feel lousy about it.

most everyone i know is attached or dating. pressure much? *nod. and i'm kinda reminded recently that i'm not exactly you know, attractive? yea. pain? i think i feel a bit of pain. you'd think i'd be immune by now. but i'm not. i'm human.

anyways nuha had 2/4 of her wisdom teeth removed today. i hope she feels better!

shroom feels lousy and beaten.

oh the irony!

yea, what the title said. haha and ben lee said i have short term memory!

so anyways, i think what i wanted to blog about was what the dancers needa wear for ragdance. the theme is arabian nights and the guys' are gonna be dressed like aladdin with nothing but a vest over their torsos! you know what that means? i gotta start verking out. and watching my diet! gotta get those pecs and abs back you know. haha.

and dancing on friday was really good! except i think i've mixed up all the steps we learnt! aiyohhh.

something tells me this was not what i wanted to blog about. nehmind!

the shroom wants to be hitched to a good christian.

i love having stuff to blog d=

did you know that "a cheerful heart is good medicine" is actually from the bible? i kid you not! its from proverbs 17:22. i didn't know! that's one more thing i learnt today (=

i had a bit of a "revelation" today. i should practise my scales on the keys before i actually go on to learning other things to do with the keyboard/piano.

hmmm. i'm sitting down here now and then realising that i can't remember what else i wanted to blog! X= will get back to this later...

shroom is perplexed.

one of the best quotes i've come across

"Worship is the submission of all our nature to God. 

It is the quickening of conscience by His holiness; 

the nourishment of mind with His truth; 

the purifying of imagination by His beauty;

the opening of the heart to His love; 

the surrender of will to His purpose

- and all of this gathered up in adoration, 

the most selfless emotion of which our nature is capable and therefore 

the chief remedy for that self-centeredness 

which is our original sin and the source of all actual sin"

- William Temple, Readings in St. John's Gospel, 1939

another quote (=

"well, for me it's waking up beside you

to watch the sunrise on your face

to know that i can say i love you

in any given time or place"

- Flying Without Wings (1999)

it rained today

so it's been two blog-less days. didn't really find anything blog worthy.

but it finally rained today. how long has it been since it rained? i remember the last was once late at night, but that doesn't really count. love the weather, don't like getting wet, just love the cool-ness. d=

i woke up yesterday having strained my lower back. and i wonder what i did while asleep to have strained it. haha. i swear i went to bed completely fine and then when i woke up i couldn't sit up. *shrug.

kinna stinks cause i've got practice for rag dance today. yup, i'm going to dance! haven't done that in a while but i think i'll enjoy it, assuming nothing traumatises my back that much. heh.

anyways, gotta go for lecture!

old man shroom

a collection of disorganised thoughts

this will be a largely incoherent blog entry...

i am sick.

down with a bad case of pharyngitis and stuffy nose. *sniff.

had to sing at church today still, cause half the congregation's in australia and no one can take over me. had a good time though! god showed up, that's all that matters (=

something was different about worship leading today... a good kinda different.

sarah celebrated her 21st today as well. had a nice party at makarios in the national library. the dinner was awesome and the creme brulee was spectacular. she's a really lucky girl. got company of good friends and parents who spare nothing in celebrating her and who she is. that's a good thing.

am contemplating whether i should declare my philo grade unsatisfactory.

would you call the ability to be super "garang" and super enthusiastic a gift? like thin skin? haha would that be a gift?

shroom is still waiting...

random emo quote

hitch: what if fine isn't good enough? what if i wanted extraordinary?

sara: there's no such thing.

- Hitch (2005)

first uni grades...

the day started with a realisation that i would be getting my very first uni grades today. anticipation. cold feet. whatchumacallit.

got an A- for nm2220 and a B for phe1101e. and a cap of 4.0.

don't get me wrong, i thank god for passing both modules, but the B for philo practically seals my fate as a mugger for the next year. for me to bring my cap up to 4.5 i need to be getting A/A+ for all my modules in the year to come. priscilla, this would be a good place to go "chui ah!" (=

this means i must get an A for ge1101e as well - the geog module im doing now. stress much.

i complain too much. moving on...

so i caught Wanted with a buncha og peeps last night. ash, edwin, sabrina, leon and melv. pity the rest couldn't make it. it was a good show - once you look past the ridiculous things those people could do. one of them could almost fly! all of them could bend bullet paths!

it got my mind off the movie nuha suggested i watch though! phew. only a few movies nowadays can get me emoing. and that did. so that + lousy grades = deadly combination.

waiting for the arts rag meeting @ 3pm. pam and sabrina'll be there i think.

in the meanwhile, more geog readings. should prolly plan what modules to take for AY0809 Sem 1 too!

shroom is moody.

here's to many more!

and so i've finally given in and started my own blog...

i don't know, maybe i just felt the need to write. about what happens. about what i feel, maybe my opinions on stuff. but rhordan encouraged me ages ago to journal. and that it'll really help in finding out my strengths and doing what i'm good at etc... the whole journey of discovering my gifts which i feel has been put to a hiatus recently.

so here goes!

there've been renovations at home the past two days. the house is a mess! its annoyingly noisy, dusty and untidy - did i mention messy?! - but pretty exciting! they're knocking down an entire room and expanding our living room. am looking forward to a more spacious area for me to lepak.

pity i won't be able to enjoy it for very long though. i got a place on campus! prince george's park... a single room. and i can't wait! finally get to "live on my own". got some apprehensions though but the general feeling's one of excitement!

wokay mom's home to take over watchman duty and i gotta get ready for a movie with the guys!

the shroom signs out!