mno1001

my lecturer for the module is awesome. but that's not what i wanted to blog about. heh.

he asked us - what's the most important thing in our lives.

i thought about it for a while.

and said "the people in my life - my friends: the people who stumbled across and into my life. and my family"

i don't know why, but that almost brought me to tears leh.

haha.

maybe cause its truth and that god's been bringing me to a place where i really really really appreciate the people in my life.

i don't know what to say.

except.

thank you.

can't sleep.

its 5.27am. been having a really bad sleep. keep waking up for no reason. argh.

a reflection.

i would like to thank some people in my life.

a big thank you for those who have hurt me

or in anyway was not a positive influence in my life

in the year twenty-o-eight?

i've grown because of you

muchos gracias

the people without whom

i would not have lived this life fully

this past year

the awesome-est people

that god placed in my life

you know who you are.

thank you.

and to every one of the people i know

(a bit late ah, but)

have a great and extremely blessed year ahead!

woe is me...

you know how sometimes someone shares something with you

something they're vexed or frustrated about?

and then you quickly identify the problem and then realise

that you've been through something like that before?

it happened to me today.

and i dived in real quick!

wanting to counsel and advise my friend.

i got really quite frustrated cause, well

he just wouldn't listen and kept changing the subject!

and i got rather upset

and he got rather upset.

he said all he wanted was to not think about it.

which didn't make sense!

because avoiding the problem, doesn't help anything,

it'd still be there!

he said i didn't consider what he needed.

and i did what i thought was right.

without sparing a thought for his feelings.

and then it struck me.

and i broke down.

i had been so caught up with trying to get him to think the way i did.

so caught up with trying to counsel and give advise

preoccupied with ensuring he doesn't go through the same things i had to

that i had forgotten to love him.

i forgot that he was human, like me.

and like any other normal human being

he was different.

different from me.

and dealt with problems differently.

i'm sorry.

some resolutions

i think too often i have decided to live life the way I WANT to

the way i am influenced by the world to think that i want

to live for the moment, for personal gratification.

but i've been thinking about some things lately

and here's what i've concluded.

i will love god and people. his creation.

i will live like there is no tomorrow

(and it dawned on me that its quite appropriate seeing how unpredictable life is nowadays)

and not like a hedonistic sort of living with no regrets

but one with an eternal perspective.

to live choosing each choice because it matters to god.

and i've thought of a few things i wanna do before i die

- to have made a difference

- to see the aurora borealis

- and the green flash at hawaii

i'll work on this list! (=

EDITED, 30th dec!

vegans.

i saw this on my friend's msn nick:

"i am vegetarian not because i love animals. i am vegetarian because i hate plants"

that's quite brilliant! haha.

my thoughts tonight.

i believe.

the greatest thing that can happen in one's lifetime, is

spending one's life with someone.

the commitment to work things out

regardless how bad the situation gets

no matter what life throws at them.

that, will be the greatest thing.

aside from my daddy god of course.

and all that said. I'M REALLY STRESSED ABOUT THE THEATRE STUDIES THEORY PAPER TOMORROW!!!