revised to-do list

i'm gonna need to be working on a few things.

(putting it down so i can refer to it)

i need to be careful that my idol isn't work... what work, one might ask? well just the notion

and editing the previous list,

1) get uob bank account (for the role of blast treasurer)

2) read up on accounting (rachel's poa book if its still existent)

3) finish the heart of the artist

4) read my visual design fundamentals book

5) finish the whole stack of books about worship (that rhordan lent!)

6) take dance lessons

7) find a vocal coach

8) read up on digital photography

9) plan modules for next sem

p.s. i think i should blog more regularly. maybe i should start with a better blog engine...

(no name post)

thinking... thinking long and hard...

I want to stand on a mountaintop and sing praises to my God.

Psalm 71

¹ In You, O LORD, I put my trust;
Let me never be put to shame.
² Deliver me in Your righteousness, and cause me to escape;
Incline Your ear to me, and save me.
³ Be my strong refuge,
To which I may resort continually;
You have given the commandment to save me,
For You are my rock and my fortress.

⁴ Deliver me, O my God, out of the hand of the wicked,
Out of the hand of the unrighteous and cruel man.
⁵ For You are my hope, O Lord GOD;
You are my trust from my youth.
⁶ By You I have been upheld from birth;
You are He who took me out of my mother’s womb.
My praise shall be continually of You.

⁷ I have become as a wonder to many,
But You are my strong refuge.
⁸ Let my mouth be filled with Your praise
And with Your glory all the day.

⁹ Do not cast me off in the time of old age;
Do not forsake me when my strength fails.
¹⁰ For my enemies speak against me;
And those who lie in wait for my life take counsel together,
¹¹ Saying, “God has forsaken him;
Pursue and take him, for there is none to deliver him.”

¹² O God, do not be far from me;
O my God, make haste to help me!
¹³ Let them be confounded and consumed
Who are adversaries of my life;
Let them be covered with reproach and dishonor
Who seek my hurt.

¹⁴ But I will hope continually,
And will praise You yet more and more.
¹⁵ My mouth shall tell of Your righteousness
And Your salvation all the day,
For I do not know their limits.
¹⁶ I will go in the strength of the Lord GOD;
I will make mention of Your righteousness, of Yours only.

¹⁷ O God, You have taught me from my youth;
And to this day I declare Your wondrous works.
¹⁸ Now also when I am old and grayheaded,
O God, do not forsake me,
Until I declare Your strength to this generation,
Your power to everyone who is to come.

¹⁹ Also Your righteousness, O God, is very high,
You who have done great things;
O God, who is like You?
²⁰ You, who have shown me great and severe troubles,
Shall revive me again,
And bring me up again from the depths of the earth.
²¹ You shall increase my greatness,
And comfort me on every side.

²² Also with the lute I will praise You—
And Your faithfulness, O my God!
To You I will sing with the harp,
O Holy One of Israel.
²³ My lips shall greatly rejoice when I sing to You,
And my soul, which You have redeemed.
²⁴ My tongue also shall talk of Your righteousness all the day long;
For they are confounded,
For they are brought to shame
Who seek my hurt.

post-exam to-do list

1) recover

2) get uob bank account

3) read up on accounting (rachel's poa book if its still existent)

4) read my visual design fundamentals book

5) finish the heart of the artist

6) finish the whole stack of stuff rhord's given me to read - sorry rhordan!

7) meet rhord

8) take dance and music lessons

9) look for singing lessons

10) read up on digital photography

11) plan modules for next sem

and 12) hang out with friends

still more to come...

hmm. looks like there's heaps to be done.

for now, EXAMSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! E!@$)(&!(^&!^$!(*&@!$!

break my heart for what breaks yours.

it's been my prayer for a while now for god to give me a heart for his people.

(cause i find it tremendously hard to love singaporeans - the kiasu syndrome, impoliteness and the inconsiderate nature of these people *sigh*)

anyways.

today a friend told me today over lunch, about her friend who recently lost his mom.

and we were talking about it, when my heart started aching for her friend and his family.

it came as a surprise to me cause i didn't even know the guy. or his mother or anyone from his family.

he was a friend of a friend.

it's blog-worthy cause i haven't felt that way for a complete stranger before...

i brushed it off saying to myself "i put myself in his shoes - that's good application of stanislavsky's magic 'if' technique"

and then there came the article on straits times online at about 4pm about the poor ntu student who stabbed his professor and then killed himself.

my heart ached too.

and even as i'm typing this i actually still feel the abovementioned...

i'm guessing... that's a good thing ((=

p.s. i've been trying to study for my mid term on friday but i don't seem to be productive *whines*

i just wish.

that i could do more.

you know, have more hours to do a day.

work more, study more, rest more (so i won't have to fall sick so often)

so that i can juggle my commitments better

and commit to some more things

so that i can accomplish more

so that i can help more people

so that, in having more time...

i won't have to disappoint people.

i was at the dance blast committee interview earlier. and yea. it just struck me. i dunno. i'm really upset i cannot do more. helpless and useless la. sigh.

quote from my business Management and Organization module...

"almost everything of the moment is the product of serendipity"

- Nassim Nicholas Taleb (The Black Swan)

you think?!?!

serendipity? or something more?