its another one of those times.

one of those moments which bombard you with so much emotion.

so much that you cannot comprehend what's going on,

and you're forced to sit down and think through what's going on in your life.

yea its happening to me now.

i realise all i blog about is emo stuff.

so pardon me if i bore you with all this nonsense.

cause my life, if you know me, is an open book.

i'm a loose canon if you would have it,

telling everyone and anyone

who will listen;

about what's going on in life.

heh i even think my life is defined by the friends i spend my time with.

back to the matter

i lost my iphone a week ago.

and.

why can't people just be more understanding and just, nicer?

1) your random pedestrian on a singapore street is probably inconsiderate, walks slow (i would like to punch slow walking people at the back of the head - have you joined that facebook group?), knocks into you, pushes past you or something. without batting an eyelid. cause they're not courteous enough. these people are the reason why singapore is not a first world country - because we're a country with first class facilities but third class citizens.

2) everyone around me seems to want a piece of me. i'm too busy. too busy to even take a break and go to the gym. i'm going out of shape. and people are extremely mean, people are demanding. CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND THAT I DO NOT JUST DO WORK FOR YOU?!?! nus stage people are so demanding - when they in their own work, don't deliver. aunty lily pissed me off i replied in kind. and some people just find me too busy to hang around.

i'm too busy.

too busy perhaps to even hang out with some of my friends.

i'm supposed to meet nuha for lunch, 

marcus c. for coffee,

supposed to have lunch with joanne and sabng.

ben and i are supposed to meet up,

and i haven't hung out for gerald for more than 5 minutes in the past what, 2-3 weeks? of course he's different. he's got a special someone to spend time with.

i cancelled on dinner with kristen last monday, probably have to again this week.

i don't know what to do.

on a brighter note, i had a gig at ngee ann today with the church guys.

which went really well.

i'm quite pleased with that.

and i bumped into marcus c. too so it ain't all to bad.

now back to the books.

no time to lose.

i feel like a tightly strung piece of wire.

that recoils and cuts just anyone around me.

sigh.